theastrofiend speaks project 1.A

theastrofiend speaks project 1.A

Don't know where to start, being how new, scary and spontaneous this all is. I don't know if I can pinpoint the exact moment or thought form that made me take this step and reach out soo publicly  for this project?? :0 !!!!!. Like right now I have knots in my stomach and I feel like an ADHD beast within me that trying to be still. This feeling isn't one of excitement but more of a responsibility to myself and my natal chart.

I've honestly been thinking about this for years, perhaps even when I originally first started writing online almost four years ago (back in 2013). Btw I started this blog 2014, but didn't started seriously writing on here until 2015. 

Anyway as I just said the way I am feeling isn't excitement but more of a responsibility to myself and my natal chart. I feel I have a responsibility first as a writer, an aspiring creative professional to write from the heart. I mean I always write from the heart. Whatever words that I have typed are all me, no questions asked. Even so, apart of me felt like I had to stop myself from writing about myself, my feelings, and my thoughts from a personal basis/perspective.  Even though I secretly wanted to and craved to. Apart of me feels like I got to keep that part of myself hidden away, like I am ashamed or something.

Growing up I always wrote songs and poetry. At some point during adulthood my poetry and songwriting became less and less frequent. 2016 was HARD YEAR FOR ME. A lot of changes, disappointment, disillusionment, fear and bereavement at the core of me. Btw I was going through a Saturn in the 4th House transit (more on that later). Anyway towards the end of 2016, I took the time to sit down and organize my stuff. That's when I rediscover about hundred of my old songs/poetry that I have written. It took me back, made me nostalgic (I dead ass have poetry from 2002/15 years ago); and realize I have lost who I was as person and needed to return back to me. By me not writing about myself, my feelings, and thoughts from a personal basis/perspective, I wasn't being fully myself and true to myself. 

Keep in mind that I still do write poetry/songs now but it wasn't the same as back then.  Back then I wrote because it was urgent and immediate. I felt my feelings, wrote it down and then I moved on. It was a source of comfort and escape. Now writing poetry/songs sometimes feels like a chore. Not only that but my words linger and haunt me. Sometimes it's not a source of comfort, but a source of pain & reliving my pain. My words often being told through the lens of my 5 year plus battle with depression.

By the way writing from a personal level now won't be the same as back then. Right at this second this isn't me tripping on and getting stuck in the past. This isn't me romanticizing my past.  This is me acknowledging my past and who I WAS. This is me appreciating and reconciling with my past but at the same time me wanting to move forward and be present now and for my future. This is where astrology and my love for astrology comes in. 

Through life, my experiences, my depression and my interest and love for astrology I am constantly learning to be self-actualized and self aware. I originally got into astrology over 9 years ago; but I didn't get serious until I started college (2010), which was around the same time my depression started. Astrology became and still is my source of inspiration, comfort and joy. I love to learn and astrology was/is an extension of my love of knowledge and learning. I felt alienated/lost in college and I realize this was not a new feeling. All my life I've felt alienated/lost and also ashamed. I've hidden my true self away and astrology is helping me reignite and reunited with myself, but also with new awareness and intent. 

All this now is coming in full circle now because when I started to get deep into astrology, I hid my love for it. I was ashamed because it isn't socially accepted (mainstream culture see astrology lovers a dumb and crazy). But I was mostly ashamed because I was in love with it. 

By some warped mentality all my life I've felt like I had to hide the things I love, keep them close to my chest while at the same time keeping them as far away from me as possible. I did this with my song/poetry writing. I wrote often in secret; and would have died a million times over if someone read my words. AKA Killing me Softly With His Song Roberta Flack style. 

Keep in mind again I started to delve DEEP into astrology in 2010. From that point it took 3 years (2013) for me to openly express my love for astrology and to start writing about astrology online. It took 2016 for me to see/acknowledge a real pattern of shame, hiding, feeling unworthy, etc related to my writing about my feelings and what matters to me.

Now it's 2017 and I want to start a new chapter in my love for astrology and I want to share a deeper part of myself with you through blogging and astrology. This is random but I  got moon, friggin MOON in MY 3rd HOUSE. This placement is similar to Moon in Gemini. You know how frickin' hard it is not write and communicate 24/7 about my feelings about my natal chart. 

I also want to connect. Like again who the fuck is reading this blog? I didn't get to almost 25,000 views by myself. Like who the fuck are you? Like really I don't know if you relate to my blog topics (about American celebrities, pop culture and shit). Maybe people are not really reading or into this blog. But I fully don't believe that. Somebody must like this blog somewhere, even if they are liking and reading it from a small village in Slovakia.

I know my writing/topics seems superficial and shallow but it's not. I want to connect to others in other meaningful ways and hopefully with this project/blog/whatever it will be you get to see a deeper part of me while also understanding astrology from a deeper/personal level. Kinda like life imitating art, in this case, life imitating astrology..... well that kinda doesn't make sense. Imma stop here before this becomes a novel. ps. this is me Moon in the 3rd House rambling.

Originally written on: January 25th 2017

Introducing theastrofiend speaks project.

I've debated writing this blog post because it's different from my other blog posts and the content/subject of this blog. I've been thinking about this for a while (for a couple of months now); but now I have the guts (or stupidity) to actually speak (aka write) on it. This is literally blowing a cement hole through my stomach. I don't know if this is the right move but I gotta express myself and take a chance.

Lemme stop with the suspense and cut to the chase. As the title suggests I am introducing theastrofiend speaks project. This is not pre-mediated or pre-planned even though I've been thinking about this for a while. I wasn't planning on writing this blog post, now at 4:37 am or perhaps even at all. theastrofiend speaks project (working title by the way) is me expressing my deep dark raw personal thoughts and emotions about myself and my natal chart. Online, for the world wide web to see. So pretty much is me venting online about my natal chart.

I am not sure if this will just be one sad half ass blog post, a project, a separate blog, or if I will write my astrofiend speaks posts on here. I want to use and exercise my Moon in the 3rd House, Chiron in Leo in the 12th House, Uranus/Neptune/North Node in the 5th House energy. 

I am proud of my blog, this blog. I am proud and confident of my opinions and thoughts. Like I have  almost 25,000 views (without much social media promotion)!!!! Which sounds kinda crazy. 

I am  proud to share my passion and LOVE of astrology with you who ever you are. By the way I still have no idea who reads this blog. I get comments but it is mostly from butt-hurt people venting about how I am a hater, that I can't write, and this and that. I do get sweet comments that make my day too <3. Whatever the case whomever you are, who ever reads this first and foremost thank you and second make yourself known. I really wanna know who you are and where these almost 25,000 views are coming in from.

Overall I want to connect to others but also and more importantly to myself. 2016 taught me out with the old and in with the new. By the way I'm going to start writing an astrofiend speaks blog post directly after this. Got a lot on my mind and want to express it.

Anyways thank you and speak to you soon.

Aquarian Age Modern Woman: Capricorn FLOTUS Michelle Obama

If you haven't noticed we are in the Age of Aquarius. The world and society is transition. This is the time for the people, especially with Pluto in Scorpio and Sagittarius generations taking reigns; it's the time for the Other. The Other meaning the ones on the fringes of society. Gay & Trans people. People with mental illnesses. The bad bitch, aka sexually independent woman without shame. Some will call this woman a feminist. Michelle Obama is in the realm of the Other, specifically regarding women's rights and issues. She is the Aquarian Age Modern Woman.

Michelle Obama astrotheme profile link here

Sun & Mercury in Capricorn

Michelle Obama has Sun & Mercury in Capricorn, which means that she has a very practical, grounded and serious nature. She is about her business and her grown woman shit. She is ready, willing and able to the groundwork. Capricorn at best when they put aside their cold ambition and who can use its' enterprising, disciplined, organized and responsible Cardinal earth energy to move their community, society & humanity forward.

Mars & Saturn in Aquarius

Michelle Obama has both Mars & Saturn in Aquarius. This means she has the discipline (Saturn) and energy (Mars) to fight that good Aquarian fight. Aquarius is all for the people. Ask Bob Marley. Aquarius is deeply invested and interested in equality and being the ONE in the group; while BEING in the group. They are the individuals in the community and the community in the individuals.  Aquarius is the intellectual rebel; the social justice warrior/SJW and the social individualist.

Sun & Mars conjunct & Jupiter in Aries

Michelle Obama has Sun & Mars conjunct & Jupiter in Aries. This means she has an competitive, energetic, strong constitution and fighting nature. She is both the underdog, the aggressor, and the champion. Being a lawyer by trade, she plunges into her strong Martian energy and uses it to promote Age of Aquarian ideals.

Moon & Venus conjunct in Pisces

Michelle Obama has Moon & Venus conjunct in Pisces. This is the same combo as Martin Luther King Jr. Michelle has all this strong, Cardinal and fixed energy. But the key ingredient to her recipe is her compassion. She sacrifices, put her own career and ambitions on hold to support her husband's own career/ambitions. I am sure in the process/end results of this sacrifice was self-discovery and new, improved and even better ambitions.

All this said Michelle with the combination of the humanitarian, intellectual nature of her Aquarius energy, the competitive/fighting spirit of her Jupiter in Aries/Sun-Mars conjunct, and her sensitive/compassionate Piscean energy is an  Aquarian Age Modern Woman that wants to help move humanity forward. Anyway #Capricorn, #Capricorn season

AstroScope: Capricorn Jamaican Dance-hall Artist Vybz Kartel Helping to Set Music Trends Abroad

For those who don't know what Dancehall is or who Vybz Kartel is, I'll explain. Dancehall is a genre of dance music from Jamaica. Vybz (pronounced Vibes) Kartel is a Dancehall artist from Jamaica. Yes there are other genres of music and musicians in Jamaica other than reggae and Bob Marley (no shade though, Bob is like everything). Dancehall is the hip hop of the Carribean complete with its own sound, beats (known as riddims) and dances (like Daggering, Raging Bull, Dutty Whine, Willy Bouncing, etc.) I can blow your mind and talk about other Jamaican music genres like ska and rocksteady too but nope. Anyway if you notice a trend in pop music (a la Justin Bieber and Major Lazer) as of late. There is a Caribbean sound to pop music (among many other sounds).

Blame artists from the Caribbean (not exclusivity Jamaica btw). Soca (another genre of Caribbean music from Trinidad and Tobago) should also be included. Anyway before this gets boring and too run-on sentency Vybz Kartel is one of the culprits to blame for this surge in Caribbean style pop music (known as Caribbean House music). Since it's Capricorn season I wanna show you the influence power of Capricorn and bountiless ambition of one Capricorn artist. Vybz Kartel.

Vybz Kartel aka Adidja Azim Palmer

He doesn't have an astrotheme profile but a Wikipedia page. He's from Portmore, Jamaica. He's internationally known for his collaboration with Major Lazer, "Pon de Floor". He also known for his song "Clarks," and has collaborated with Jay Z, MIA, Rihanna, etc. Fifth Harmony also covered one of his songs (Gon' Get Better) on their latest album. I ran a natal chart for him. He was born on January 7th 1976, Kingston, JA. His Wikipedia page linked here.

Sun in Capricorn

Of course since it's Capricorn season, so Vybz Kartel has his Sun in Capricorn which makes him an ambitious, hard worker. Even now, with Vybz Kartel in jail for life on a murder charge, he is still recording and putting out new music and music videos. He is a regarded and revered international crossover artist that is helping put the Jamaican dancehall sound to the world stage.

Moon in Pisces

Vybz Kartel is sensitive, impressionable, & creative. He shares his moon sign with Michael Jackson, Prince, MLK Jr., Michelle Obama, Hillary Clinton, Kim K, Kanye West, etc. This is an artistic placement. Changeable, versatile emotions makes for good music. Since Moon in Pisces is soo sensitive the music will be relatable and definitely for the people.

Venus & Neptune in Sagittarius

Vybz Kartel has Venus and Neptune in Sagittarius. This means that he's a freedom loving risk taker who loves a challenge. In relationships he likes independence and independent, fun loving women (Venus). His tastes and interests are wild and crazy. He doesn't like to tied down and that can be related to his music (Venus) and his sense of fantasy (Neptune). Check out his big summer 16 song, Fever.

Mercury in Aquarius

Vybz Kartel has Mercury in Aquarius. Mercury in Aquarius are inventive, creative, and unique communicators. As an artist his music can be a bit vulgar and crass. There is also a rebellious and anti-tradition aspect to this placement and  to Vybz Kartel's music. He is an individualist and his music shows this. He enjoys to communicate.

Mars in Gemini

Vybz Kartel has Mars in Gemini. This placement is a jack of all trades, master of none placement. Plenty of energy, interests, and sexual stamina. Most if not all of his songs have some element of sex involved. He literally can't go a song without saying "mi cocky" and "pussy." Mars in Gemini are the not so secret freaks in the sheets placement of the zodiac.

Uranus and North Node in Scorpio

Vybz Kartel has Uranus in Scorpio. Uranus is all about rebellion. In Scorpio, Uranus rebel with secrets, control, power, and intensity. Other than the sexual element in his music (very Scorpionic), Vybz Kartel rebels through his "Kartel" "Gully" connections and associations. Vybz has had a hard life and along the way he has met, befriended and pledges loyalty to the darker, troubled, criminals and oftentimes low lifes of his environment. Scorpio is a stubborn/strong-willed placement. It would be hard for him to break free from these associations and he would probably feel the need to keep them around in order to feel free and authentic.
Vybz also has North Node in Scorpio, which means he was destined to live a Plutonian life path. Being wrapped up with a murder charge and life in prison is quite Plutonian.

Saturn in Leo

Vybz Kartel considers himself the King of Dancehall. He has Saturn in Leo. Along with Venus and Neptune in Sagittarius. He is proud, sometimes boastful but ever so charming. One fact about Leo that no one rarely talks about is that, they are secretly hard-workers. They take pride in everything that they do. Saturn in Leo shows restrictions, boundaries, and responsibilities in the Leo hemisphere. Aka pride, confidence. As a Capricorn Vybz Kartel is prone to lack of confidence, insecurity and being a stickler for rules. Saturn in Leo is a bit like that too.

BUT his other fire placements, especially his Sagittarius placements helps him overcome the repression and seriousness of his Capricorn Sun and Saturn in Leo. It allows him to feel confident and be prideful in what he does but also controlling this confidence/pride and not letting it get to his head (most of the time anyway, Venus in Sagittarius/Fire Grand Trine is quite a showman with a HUGE EGO).

Jupiter in Aries

Vybz Kartel has Jupiter in Aries. This makes him confident and independent in his beliefs and faith systems. There is a warrior like aggressive energy to his beliefs and faith and is willing to fight (or kill) for his beliefs. Proud; he is probably willing to yell it from the roof tops without caring who knows or disagrees.

Pluto in Libra

Vybz Kartel has Pluto in Libra. Pluto in Libra is all about the destruction and transformation of relationships. One of the main themes and goals for the Pluto in Libra generation is to be transformed by relationships, to stop being codependent on others, and to be true to yourself despite the opinions of others. Vybz Kartel is in prison in life. Murder charges. Bad influences. Hanging out with the wrong people even after fame and becoming rich (aka the Chris Brown syndrome). His Pluto in Libra brings his chart all in and together. He's motivated and fueled by relationships and connections (as his generation is).

Note:
Vybz Kartel has both a Grand Air Trine (Pluto in Libra, Mars in Gemini and Aquarius mercury).
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a Grand Fire Trine (Jupiter in Aries, Saturn in Leo, and Venus/Neptune in Sagittarius.
These grand trines both shows he has excellent communication skills and has energy, stamina, and confidence.