Friday, July 3, 2020

Saturn's On Time (Tic Toc) ASTROLOGY SONG & LYRIC VIDEO BY theastrofiend


Saturn's On Time (Tic Toc) ASTROLOGY SONG & LYRIC VIDEO BY theastrofiend

Song and Video Written, Performed, and Edited by ME, theastrofiend

YouTube Link here: http://youtu.be/igGU7uTmkKE

SPEAKING 0:09

HOOK
Saturn's on Time (2X) 
saturn's got
muscle memory
Resist or Suffer
Persist or Blunder
Rise or Fall
The choice is yours
to learn
now or later
Where you think you're going
You are wasting your time.

Verse 1
Saturn's on Time 
Stop wasting your time
stop wasting your time
The hands of time
don't wait for no one
So Get your ass up
focus on your goals
The world is cold
bring your own blanket
and provide your warmth

HOOK 
Saturn's on Time (1X)
saturn's got
muscle memory
Resist or Suffer
Persist or Blunder
Rise or Fall
The choice is yours
to learn
now or later (REPEAT 2X)
Where you think you're going
You are wasting your time.

FATHER TIME IS DISPPOINTED (3X)
HE CALLED YOUR NAMED
YOU'VE BEEN APPOINTED

Saturn's on Time
Stop wasting your time
stop wasting your time
The hands of time
don't wait for no one
So Get your ass up
focus on your goals
The world is cold
bring your own blanket
and provide your warmth

FATHER TIME IS DISPPOINTED (2X)
HE CALLED YOUR NAMED
YOU'VE BEEN APPOINTED

Verse 2
Saturn's on Time (2X)
saturn's got
muscle memory
Resist or Suffer
Persist or Blunder
Rise or Fall
The choice is yours
to learn
now or later
Where you think you're going
You are wasting your time.

Saturn's on Time (4X)
TIC TOC (2X)
AD LIBS

THANK YOU DISCLAIMER

Friday, June 26, 2020

Moonlight Reflections ASTROLOGY SONG & LYRIC VIDEO BY theastrofiend YouTube link below


Moonlight Reflections ASTROLOGY SONG & LYRIC VIDEO BY theastrofiend 

YouTube link here: http://youtu.be/jLEa6FcIFzM

Song and Video Written, Performed, and Edited by ME, theastrofiend

I'm laying here
it's late night
and i'm by myself
looking up to the moonlight (the moonlight)

it's so bright (so bright) 
and faraway (faraway)
but I feel it's warmth
and I feel grateful to
be alive

the world is crazy 
but i got my health
and my family is alright


Moon Moonlight Moonlight Reflections
Moon Moonlight Moonlight Reflections

Luminating my mind
Luminating my heart
Luminating my soul
Moon Moonlight Moonlight Reflections
Moon Moonlight Moonlight Reflections


All I got is Time
Which makes me think
Which makes me feel
and reflect on life
The Memories, my Experiences,
Pain and happiness

All I got is Time 
Which makes me think
Which makes me feel
and reflect on life
All I Got is Time


Reflect on my Life.
Moon Moonlight Moonlight Reflections
Moon Moonlight Moonlight Reflections

Luminating my mind (2x)
Luminating my heart
Luminating my soul
Moon Moonlight Moonlight Reflections
Moon Moonlight Moonlight Reflections

Moon Moonlight Moonlight Reflections
All I got is Time
Refleccccc tions Refleccccc tions
Luminating my mind

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Monday, June 22, 2020

Octavia E Butler Natal Chart & Astrology Biography: Cancer Afro Futurist Sci Fi Writer by theastrofiend


Octavia E Butler Natal Chart & Astrology Biography: Cancer Afro Futurist Sci Fi Writer by theastrofiend

Today would've been Octavia E Butler 73rd birthday. Octavia E Butler was a Science Fiction writer who was the first science fiction writer to win the prestigious MacArthur "nickname: Genius Grant" Fellowship award. She was also a recipient of both the Hugo and Nebula awards winning 2 of each. 

I first heard about her and read Parable of Sower when I was 12/13 years old. Since then I have read a couple more of her books (Parable of the Talents, Kindred, Wild Seed, Patternmaster, etc.). I recommend you read her books.  



Born on June 22, 1947 in Pasadena, California, Octavia E Butler was an only child. She raised primarily by her grandmother and her widowed mother who worked as a maid in the 1950s' and 1960s'. Octavia was a shy, awkward kid with slight dyslexia that was bullied. Her mother encouraged her to pursue education because she couldn't. This led Octavia E. Butler to get into reading, science fiction and writing. She retreated into writing sci-fi fiction making up stories and doing her own thing. 

From my research Octavia E. Butler possess a quiet confidence and a powerful singular ambition. Octavia knew she would be a sci fiction writer and manifested her dream and therefore her destiny. She paved the way for many black women science fiction writers and Afro futurist artists who imagine a future and destiny where black people are in charge of their being. Octavia E Butler died in 2006 of possible complications of a stroke in her home in Washington State.



Octavia E Butler Astrology




Sun in Cancer conjunct Uranus in Gemini  in the 12th House


Her perfectly chart seeping with astro-synchronicity will make a believer out of an astrology skeptic.

Describing herself as shy, timid, reclusive, introspective, it's perfect that she would be a Sun in Cancer in the 12th House. The 12th House is many things. The house of self undoing, of prisons, hospitals, etc. The 12th House is ruled by Pisces aka Neptune/Poseidon. The 12th house is a spiritual death cycle where the borders and veil between the dimensions are thin. It's like a Halloween Fun House 24/7. Octavia is a hermit crab in beach overlooking a cosmic ocean in another dimension.

Random but it's possible in her lifetime Octavia was a masterful channeler whether she was aware of it or not. Energy cannot be destroyed or transferred. Energy has to go somewhere. As a probable empath and channeler she possibly retreated to protect herself and her energy from this world and it's bullshit.


Not only is she a Sun in Cancer in the 12th House she's also got Sun in Cancer conjunct Uranus in Gemini in the 12th House.

She was fiercely hermit escapist but at the same time every individualistic, quietly rebellious, and social communicator via her Gemini/mercurial energy. 

This energy also heightens and intensifies the energy of her 12th House. This gives her flashes of insight, possibly psychic abilities, & great manifestation talents.

As a writer Octavia is very self aware of who she is. It's crazy to see that Octavia is celebrated as a BLACK Feminist Woman, possibly Queer AFROFUTURIST WRITER when it's quite a contradiction as to how Octavia wanted to be seen to THE MEDIA.

If you see any of Octavia E. Butler interviews it's clear that she didn't want to be boxed in as "female" "black" "science fiction writer. Watch the interview with Charlie Rose and his annoying interrupting non-listening ass. Octavia didn't care about the semantics or social optics. She didn't even consider herself a science fiction writer but a writer. Writing was her identity and she created and birthe herself like a strange alien organic organism that's both it's mother and father.

She had escapist tendencies but she never ran away from herself. She ran away from others and their own labels of her. However she knew that she was a black woman, a feminist and she took pride in that. She just didn't want the media to put her in the double minority category that is very limiting and insulting (to her artistry/talent and intelligence).

This quote used to describe herself pretty much sums her Sun and 12th House energy.

"I'm comfortably asocial - a hermit in the middle of a large city, a pessimist if I'm not careful, a feminist, a black, a former Baptist, an oil-and-water combination of ambition, laziness, insecurity, certainty and drive."



Mars in Taurus, Venus/North Node in Gemini  in the 11th House



Octavia didn't need to socialize in the traditional sense. She socialized through her writing and communicating her ideas. Venus in Gemini perfectly illustrates that especially in the 11th House. The 11th House is all about public associations, group power and the social groups you are active in. The sci fi writing community was her tribe, her clan.

Her Mars in Taurus is also in the 11th House. Mars is a lot of things and in this case this is her ambition. So she is passionate about writing and participating these groups. Mars in Taurus is focused, patient hard worker that is very grounded and willing to do the work. This is where she puts her energy (her action).

The way she uses her Mars in Taurus contradicts traditional Mars in Taurus themes (Earthy, sensual, slightly hedonistic, etc.). If you want to focus on Mars sexuality, in her books there is a very otherworldly sexual element the alien-human sex/mating/breeding, vampire-human sex. A lot of her books the sex is impersonal and necessary often used for utility/reproduction purposes for human survival (Dawn). Not necessarily for pleasure FIRST. Maybe with the exceptions of Parable of the Sower when some of the relationships are ever so slightly
romantic" or Wild Seed/Kindred when it's violent/used for control. Octavia definately sees sex/relations on multilevels/layers.


Lastly her North in Gemini is the 11th House. This means her destiny is tied with others and the world. Why is it now she's been dead for over 10 years and artists like Janelle Monae are HIGHLY influenced by her work. 

Random but I read on Instagram like a year or so ago that one of her books Dawn is being developed to be an Amazon series by director Ava Duvernay. While another one of a books, Wild Seed is being adapted by actress Viola Davis to be yet another Amazon series.

She's very relevant now possibly even more so than back then. She's finally getting her flowers and the respect/recognition that she deserved.

Neptune in Libra the 3rd House



Another astro-synchronicity chart moment. Neptune in the 3rd House is like duh hello she's a science fiction writer.

I have to repeat myself again. Octavia E. Butler had escapist tendencies but she never ran away from herself. She ran away from others and their own labels of her. However she knew that she was a black woman, a feminist and she took pride in that. She just didn't want the media to put her in the double minority category that is very limiting and insulting (to her artistry/talent and intelligence). This applies to Neptune in 3rd House and her writing/communication and her blurring lines and boundaries as a writer, storyteller, world builder, communicator.

She is the myth and the reality. She created and birthe herself using her mind. Your mind, your words & thoughts, and self talk are important in creating your own identity. She knew the importance of this. She took control and realized there ain't no boundaries for her. She can be anything and whomever she wanted.


Her Neptune in Libra is also very socially aware. Her novels have very socially aware themes: global warming, humanity, escapism, dystopian, racism, classism. She used her otherworldly boundless creativity to create new worlds via her writing. Maybe a better word is not escape but transcend.


Jupiter in Scorpio Retrograde in the 5th House



Her Jupiter in Scorpio Retrograde in the 5th House (of creativity, sex, children, romance). Not only was she her mother and father she was also her child. To quote the Divine Venus, Jupiter Retrograde can act like Pluto in the sense that the energy is directed inward and can be very transformational (no choice in that really).

She had an expansive creative world that she built in her novels that portrayed themes of a unique/foreign sexuality and expression, reproduction, power dynamics, and overall interesting world of chaos and new possibilities.

Random but Octavia was an extremist, militant, and VERY OBSESSIVE when it came to her writing. In an article (I will reference/link below). Octavia stated she has a quote:

 “positive obsession” for science-fiction writing. She refers to this concept in an autobiographical essay, stating that “Positive obsession is about not being able to stop just because you’re afraid and full of doubts. Positive obsession is dangerous. It’s about not being able to stop at all.”

It's like she had a divine unstoppable mission to humanity like one of her fantastical characters in her books.

Moon in Leo the 2nd House


Moon in Leo is where I think Octavia got her quiet confidence. It's a misconception that Moon in Leos are attention whores. I noticed Moon in Leos (for the most part) tend to be more reserved. This doesn't mean Octavia wasn't bursting with theatrical dramatic creativity. SHE WAS. HELLO SHE GOT MOON IN LEO!!!

She shares a lot of similarities astrologically and life themes with Frida Kahlo. These are both women who created themselves in their own image. Who had a rich creative inner world that informed their daily existence. 

Octavia has Moon in the 2nd House aka using her emotions/habits to make money. Moon in the 2nd House is extremely instinctual and has income that fluctuates. Nothing is more inconsistent than the life of a professional artist. Octavia chose to stick to what she knew (herself) and how to get to that BAG.

Mercury in Cancer, Saturn in Leo, and Pluto in Leo in the 1st House



Her Mercury in Cancer, Saturn in Leo and Pluto in Leo are all in the 1st House. All these planets reinforced what I've been saying throughout this post.

Her sensitive instinctive emotional nature fueled her work. She couldn't stop; her work was her life mission, her legacy.

Again she birthe herself (she was her own mother/Cancer). She nurtured and developed her creativity in doing so she created her life, and the life of her worlds. She was also her own father (Leo/The Sun) she loved herself enough to discipline herself and her creative talent (Saturn) to her power (Pluto).

Note in terms of the astrology of appearance Octavia stood at tall at 6'0 so she was literally made to stand out. Talk about Pluto in the 1st House. Note her ascendant is in Cancer. She's a gentle giant.

Overall Octavia is an important figure and her astrological chart is very cohesive. There is so much more I can say about her, but I'll stop here. Happy Birthday Octavia

NOTE: I wanted to put this out on Octavia E. Butler's birthday last year. Technically she's also an Unconventional Cancer but honestly I wanted to write about her astrology for years even before I thought of /wrote about the other Unconventional Cancers (Frida Kahlo & Nikola Tesla) in my Unconventional Cancers mini series. Octavia deserves her OWN blog post outside of that series. Random but I also want to write about playwright Taurus August Wilson's astrology (haven't yet but I will).

RESEARCH RESOURCES

Young, Cat, "Octavia Butler’s Biography" Parable of the sower atunc.web.unc, 4 December 2017

link: http://parableofthesoweratunc.web.unc.edu/2017/12/octavia-butlers-biography/


Bates, Karen Grigsby. “Octavia Butler: Writing Herself Into the Story.” NPR, NPR, 10 July 2017, 

www.npr.org/sections/codeswitch/2017/07/10/535879364/octavia-butler-writing-herself-into-the-story.

Ava Duvernay, Dawn, Amazon series

Wild Seed, Viola Davis Techcrunch

La Times

Friday, June 19, 2020

Synastry ASTROLOGY SONG & LYRIC VIDEO BY theastrofiend YouTube Link Below!


Synastry ASTROLOGY SONG & LYRIC VIDEO BY theastrofiend
YouTube link here: http://youtu.be/2Uq4hR3PzOg

Ad libs
Oh Baby?
What's your sign?
Oh yea yea yea yeaa!!
What's your synastry
Baby
Are you into me?

Verse 1 
Synastry
We matched in okc
Giving online dating
another
Venus's in retrograde
in Gemini
Is this really a good time?
We're in quarantine
I've got all the time

Hook  (repeat 2x)
What's our synastry?
Are you into me?
Astrology compatibility

Verse 2
It's not just sun signs.
Are our Venuses trined
Saturn in the 7th House
Is that a bad 
sign?

Moons are sextile
Our mars are squared
Will this be a passionate affair?
Twin Flames?
Soul Mates?
What do the stars see? (Repeat 3x)

Hook (Repeat Happily)
Synastry?
Are you into me?
Astrology compatibility

Ad libs
Repeat Hook
Synastry?
Are you into me?
Astrology compatibility

Disclaimer 

Friday, June 5, 2020

We Are In Saturn Times ASTROLOGY SONG & LYRIC VIDEO BY theastrofiend YouTube Link Below


We Are In Saturn Times ASTROLOGY SONG & LYRIC VIDEO BY theastrofiend 

YouTube link here: http://youtu.be/Il_f6JxHfuA

Song and Video Written, Performed, and Edited by ME, theastrofiend

We Are in Saturn Times
Stay Grounded
Work HARD
We Are in Saturn Times
Stay Grounded
Work HARD

Verse 1  
The fear 
The pain 
Anxiety 
Sadness 

We Are in Saturn Times
Stay Grounded
Work HARD
We Are in Saturn Times
Stay Grounded
Work HARD

The Fear
The Pain
The Sadness
The Anxiety

We Are in Saturn Times
Stay Grounded
Work HARD
We Are in Saturn Times
Stay Grounded
Work HARD

We will survive
We will survive

We Are in Saturn Times
Stay Grounded
Work HARD
We Are in Saturn Times
Stay Grounded
Work HARD

We will survive
We will survive
Stay Grounded
Work HARD
Stay Grounded
Work HARD

We Are in Saturn Times
Stay Grounded
Work HARD
We Are in Saturn Times
Stay Grounded
Work HARD

Disclaimer
Please stay grounded and work hard

It's going to be ok. (2x repeat)

Wednesday, June 3, 2020

Gemini Crackdown Energy, Lockdown Productivity: New Podcasts & Astrology Songs on my YouTube coming out

Gemini Crackdown Energy, Lockdown Productivity: New Podcasts & Astrology Songs on my YouTube coming out

theastrofiend on YouTube
WEDNESDAYS @ 2 PM EST NEW ASTROLOGY SONGS
FRIDAYS @ 2 PM EST NEW ASTROLOGY PODCAST EPISODE


I have called this period of time Gemini Crackhead Energy. I am energized by all this energy in a new way (because of the lockdown). My intentions and energy has led to a creative output that can only be described as Gemini Crackhead Energy

I have been really productive during this quarantine which I am proud about. From now until around until mid July 15-18 I have a wrote, recorded, edited, created videos for, uploaded and scheduled a BUNCH of podcasts and lyric astrology song videos. Every Wednesday at 2 pm EST it is Season 3 (aka year 3) of my astrology/spirituality podcasts episodes. On every Friday at 2 pm EST it is lyric astrology song videos. I hope you enjoy.

I have episode 2  (part 1 and 2) astrology podcast are out now

Monday, June 1, 2020

theastrofiend speaks 2020 pt 3: Police Brutality & Racism is WRONG & EVIL: Spiritual Warfare and the Age of Aquarius

theastrofiend speaks 2020 pt 3: Police Brutality & Racism is WRONG & EVIL: Spiritual Warfare and the Age of Aquarius
originally written on Thursday May 28th 2020



I don’t know what to say and how to start this because this is one of the first time I am really putting this out there in the public sphere.

This is an astrology blog that talks about pop culture among many other things. I like to joke and be ratchet and keep it light. However we are and have been in heavy times for a LONG LONG LONG TIME. The recent wave of even more unjust murder of unarmed black people at the hands of police and racist evil rent- a cops subhumans’ in the midst of a global pandemic that is killing thousands of people!!!! It’s like the system of racism cannot help itself it just has to destroy even as a virus is raging and destroying lives, the economy and our social lives.

I started theastrofiend back in 2014 but I didn’t start writing seriously on it until 2015. I talk about this more in my theastrofiend origins story podcasts coming out later on this week (on Wednesday specifically).

But during the time I never realized how angry I was. I was angry for a bunch of reasons. One of the reasons was disillusionment and powerlessness.

I am just realizing this but I have been internalizing my emotions and feelings in regards to the instances for police brutality and the system of racism/white supremacy which probably also fueled A LOT of this anger, powerlessness and disillusionment. I mean 2012 was Travyon Martin. 2014 was Mike Brown and Eric Garner. Sandra Bland was 2015. Philando Castile and Korryn Gaines in 2016. Botham Jean in 2018. And sadly many many more. Even before these instances as a little child hearing about Abner Louima in 1997/2001 and later as a teen Sean Bell in 2006.

Even without the death and just the news stories of fellow black people being racially profiled such as 2018’s Barbecue Becky, Cornerstone Caroline and Permit Patty; more recently Central Park Karen all this energy….

Now in this time with the death of George Floyd, the same sort of feelings are coming up and since I got the time and energy (we on lockdown and shit) why not finally address it.

The targeted murder via cops of unarmed BLACK people is evil and wrong. This is evil and wrong. This is mental/psychological, emotional, physical, and SPIRITUAL WARFARE. This is where I find myself at odds with the spiritual community and don’t really find myself relating to them. A lot of the ideals of the spiritual community are bullshit. This love and light mantra is nonsense. Burning sage, setting intentions, and practicing law of attraction is all in good fun and are good intentioned but it's all window dressing and conjecture to make you feel good. Road to hell is paved with good intentions right?

We don't need love and light and to necessarily feel good. We need to heal and address society's issues head on. And not hide behind smudge sticks, cannabis, and crystals. It's self-serving and a very privileged, naïve, and out of touch sort of existence that me as a black female in America can’t relate to.

All this violence with the media further instigating/ hyping shit up is not good for the collective unconscious especially for black people. We are leaving behind the Age of Pisces ideals such as victim-hood, self-sacrifice, blind forgiveness, and naivety.

We need to experience, and understand all the negative faucets of our human emotions. Anger, fear, sadness, anxiety, despair, disillusionment HATE. We need to heal but I don’t think the love and light let’s burn incenses method is as effective unless we also address spiritual things on a reality level.

Healing doesn't feel good. Healing can be terribly painful, scary, and traumatic. The uncertainty that you are strong enough to get through it and the anxiety and fear in moving forward afraid that any mistake and misstep can lead back where you started or even worst. Plus the reliance on your will and your faith in God is extremely vulnerable. Healing especially from trauma I realize is not a short process and can actually be something lifelong, generations long, centuries long and more.

I know spirituality is very personal and a Neptunian/Jupiterian/ sometimes Saturnian escape. However if this is the society we are living in where this is ok. I promise there will be a time where you cannot escape this. Where you won’t be able to turn off your tv or stroll down or click away. This is will be at your doorstep, your children’s, your grandchildren and all your great great great great great great grandchildrens. It can happen to you. You are not above this.

I think we are confused that the Age of Aquarius will be this love fest of light love happiness rainbows pixie dust and unicorns. Yes the Age of Aquarius can be this wonderful hippie dippie time of radical change, free love, freedom, equality and all that Uranus shit.
But Aquarius is also ruled by Saturn. A lot of people forget this.

If you want to go the conspiracy theorist route then we can. Random but I think conspiracy theorists fall into the spiritual community because a lot of them are spiritual and they talk about a lot of topics that at surface level don’t seem spiritual but they are. Conspiracy theorists call themselves the truth community but they are definitely in the same house as the spiritual community, just a different room.

If you want to go the conspiracy theorist route, the Age of Aquarius can very much also be a time of New World Order, Dogmatic hive mind mentality, thought crimes, silencing of free thought/movement, control of our minds/bodies/thoughts/individuality, 1984 futuristic dystopian society mixed with a hyper police state/martial law energy. 

I can also only imagine what the Age of Capricorn after the Age of Aquarius will bring.Freedom ain’t free. 

Remember what Martin Luther King Jr. said: 

"Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere."

Or what Malcolm X said:

"You're not to be so blind with patriotism that you can't face reality. Wrong is wrong, no matter who does it or says it."

AND

"If you're not careful, the newspapers will have you hating the people who are being oppressed, and loving the people who are doing the oppressing."


BOTTOM LINE: Racism will never be ok. FUCK THE SYSTEM OF RACISM & WHITE SUPREMACY AND ALL THE DEMON SEEDS THAT WERE PLANTED SUCH AS:
ANTI BLACKNESS
COLORISM
TEXURISM
POLICE BRUTALITY
MISOGYNOIR

I originally didn’t want to talk or write about this because
One. I don’t want to say the wrong things, offend anyone, or be controversial or stand out/be a target.

Two I was afraid to make things political” but honestly that phrase is a bullshit term that is meant to discourage and silence people from speaking out and being honest. Murder is not political. Right and wrong is not political. Wanting justice is not political. It’s a human right and a human emotion. I am a writer, that’s my mode of communication, and it’s important for my own growth and sense of self to put this out there. This is where I stand.

I may do another podcast or song about this later on but I can’t not say anything. This is the perfect time with all this Gemini Crackhead energy (Gemini Sun, Venus in Gemini retrograde, etc.).

FYI I am not writing this to reach out, to debate, to antagonize, or to garner support because I’m over that we are the world, allies type bullshit.

If you don't like this and don’t care about theastrofiend after this then BYE!! I don't need or want you around me. I would like to think that the Age of Aquarius is also about finding your tribe. You just simply ain't apart of my tribe. Float away in your rainbow dust, faerie breathe, and unicorn fart. I don’t need that sort of energy.

Saturday, May 30, 2020

theastrofiend speaks 2020 pt 2: theastrofiend Origins Story Full Circle Moment: Anger, Adulthood, Racism, Police Brutality, Saturn Times



theastrofiend speaks 2020 pt 2: theastrofiend Origins Story Full Circle Moment: Anger, Adulthood, Racism, Police Brutality, Saturn Times

2018 was mostly good but then I began another Plutonian (maybe Saturnian cycle). Shit happened including being betrayed and disrespected by someone I cared for. I yet again found myself being displaced (physically and emotionally). This time around I recognized my own toxicity and my own set of patterns. I didn’t start the situations but I am also not a victim. I can own up to my own mistakes. I would say the signs were always there but internalizing a lot of shit can having you looking like a stupid bitch in these streets

Random but I kinda feel that in my adult life there is like a mini Plutonian cycles where every 2 or so years (really 1.5 years) there is some shit I gotta heal through. Honestly maybe it’s everyone. IDK but random maybe its my natal Jupiter retrograde acting like Pluto. (Alyssa Sharpe or the Divine Venus/Embracing Glory own words/theory not mine).

- Honestly I didn't realize I was angry and that anger started theastrofiend until 2018. 2018 I really embraced my anger which made me realized how angry I was in 2014-2016 and now again. Anyways 2018 was another year I had to mourn and heal but it also wasn’t bad.

The first majority/half of 2019 was much better BUT of course another transformational thing just had to happen. In the form of an injury that mirrors and parallels my first injury back in 2013. This time more serious, in Saturn in Capricorn fashion and required fucking surgery and fucking physical therapy smh. The last half of 2019 was spent fucking literally (not just emotionally) healing. Fyi I am still healing, that area of my body is still not 100%, but I have come a long fucking way and I am proud.

My life started to resume late 2019 and early 2020 I got into a routine. This year I was planning on celebrating my birthday to celebrate my progress but Saturn conjunct Pluto got other plans. La LaRona has entered the chat. I am not going to bitch. Thousands of people has and will die of the Coronavirus unfortunately. This isn’t a time to be bitching. All my trials has taught me and is still teaching me that everything is a learning moment, to be grateful for everything/everyone you have, and to use time wisely. If that isn’t the most Saturn conjunct Pluto in Capricorn statement I don’t know what it.

Honestly this time has been very productive in terms of my YouTube channel/blog. I am on this Gemini crackhead energy that started in March. I have been tuned into this energy HEAVY. All this creative energy. This urge to create and to use this energy to express myself. Random but I’m also in my Saturn return now. YAY!! Rolls eyes and looks away. I weirdly feel freer and more open in terms of my creativity and emotions while at the same time feeling physically trapped (like everyone else). I am introverted so it’s not necessarily for social reasons. It kinda the philosophy those who do, do, those who can’t, can’t.  I wanna do, but I literally can’t.

That aside another sort of energy has taken place and which brings me back to the main reasons I am writing all this. All this shit with racism and police brutality is bringing up the feelings/emotions that led me to start theastrofiend. The ANGER. The powerlessness. Spurts of Rage. Intense sadness. This time I want to speak up more about this.

This police brutality and racism is not new at all. The only new thing is the fucking media talking about it more and honestly instigating shit. How the fuck are we in the middle of a fucking pandemic and black men and women are being targeted and murdered? I am not going to lie and say I am shocked about this because I am not. Racism is 24/7 hours, 365 days of the year, and over 400 years old. It’s older than America and the sperm, egg, and womb of America. 

It’s also global and fucking everywhere. So all you shady as Europeans and Canadians thanking themselves for not being in America and how enlightened you guys are can stop. On the real real you guys started it, on the other real I lived in Europe. It was short time living there but I see how you guys get down. Y’all shit stinks too! Britain how are y’all treating the Windrush generation? France how y’all treating the African immigrant population? Italy what about your black football players? There is no escape. Just ways of coping and living with it.

It’s also crazy to see how the spiritual community is which one of my last points in this very last section and long ass post that I decide to cut into 2 long ass posts.  BTW this is also not new Black people didn’t start racism so it can’t end with us.

The spiritual community thinks it exists in a vacuum. The spiritual community is very conscious and aware about a lot of things but they, WE honestly can’t escape our social conditioning. I just got back onto Twitter, literally around May 20th. Today I was just reading Twitter threads and the amount of ignorance and racism in the spiritual Twitter community is crazy and sadly real.

Being spiritual gives us insights but it doesn’t make us special. You can be spiritual, be of light and love and be RACIST as hell. FYI I don’t go by the too simplistic definition of racism Google provides. It’s more than prejudice or superiority. Racism is a SYSTEM. An organized, well oil, ever evolving system meant to keep down my people, Black people. Maybe until the end of time or maybe until the aliens make their presence known and turn us into space dust. Who the fuck knows honestly?

The world is the way it is by DESIGN. It’s not an accident. FYI to the Truth Community/Conspiracy weirdos just because y’all think this is all orchestrated don’t mean this isn’t real. It can very well be both orchestrated/set up and at the same time very real. The media perpetrating shit maybe new to you, but it ain’t new. Police brutality existed way before YouTube, twitter, hell even the fucking television. Don’t let the “truth” keep you from doing shit.

Saging away racism, sending light and love, lighting candles and pulling cards is not going to change the system. I am not saying that it isn’t helpful, I believe it can help but there needs to be honesty.


It’s no fucking coincidence not too long ago that the USA is going through it’s Pluto Return now. USA has Pluto in Capricorn (27 degrees I think?). It started in February 2019 until January 2025. Random but I really need to do a post on the USA’s natal chart (s). The chickens are coming to roost.

The world is both economic resource driven system of Capitalist with my people being the resource and fall guy via the system of Racism. America started as a colony based off of slave labor by the European nations. This is an important factor especially in todays’ times because the same themes are coming up (economics/resources, and race). It is always this same fucking thing for 400 years. Economics, Resources and Race. Economics, Resources and Race. I am writing now, in this time because I am part of the collective unconscious, we all are.

Me, even as a first generation black American I am finally and for the past couple of years see what is going on. The same group of systems (racism + capitalism) that drove my parents to USA. A system that wants to continue to use my people for resources while at the same having the gall to tell us we are worthless and our lives mean nothing. These people are not rioting or destroying “their communities.” It’s not theirs. Nothing is ours. We don’t exist. If we do exist, then we’re every other race including the mythical POC’s punching bag and their renewable/reusable source of strength, confidence and power. It hurts.

The more we run from talking about, holding others accountable, and doing something about racism, the more America, the world, and humanity suffers. FYI telling us not to talk about, react, cope with this doesn’t make it go away, at least not for us. It’s like spiritual gas-lighting and a spiritual reckoning all in one. I promise there will be a time where you won’t be able to run and hide and you’ve wish you would’ve done the work. This is not only a warning but a promise.  It can or possibly will happen to you. You are not above this. This isn't fear mongering, this is a reality. Remember history doesn’t just repeat itself. It rhymes.

We are in Saturn Times with Capricorn and the Saturn side of Aquarius leading the way. Neptune in Pisces being a messy important little hoe and Uranus is stirring the pot. 


Remember Saturn can use it’s scythe (sickle) to steady itself, control the growth of crops, or to chop ya head off. You choose.

This is honestly hella long and I’m getting tired. Now it’s 9:41 pm and I have been writing this post (s) for hours.